Changing... should you? Do you?

So I'm watching Grease right now, and I'm wondering how do people feel about changing for the people who they are attracted to or are in relationships with. I feel like Danny may have been pretending to be someone he wasn't on the beach, or maybe he really was a nice guy who just put on an act at school...but Sandy definitely changed to be acceptable to Danny at the end.






We all know change is constant and therefore inevitable, but is it good or bad to actively try to change for another? There's a difference between trying to better yourself and trying to be someone you're not.


I think I sometimes try to change for others, but I end up judging myself and stopping most of the time. I don't know if this is a good thing or a bad thing. Hmm. Oh well. Just wondering.

Am I Clingy?

I don't think I'm clingy. I just think I should see/talk to/or communicate in some way with the people that are important in my life on a regular basis and...YES...I do get upset when we don't. But I don't think thats clingy...or at least I hope it's not. Oh well. Such is life. #keepitmoving (yes, i also talk in tweets/hashtags/trending topics.... now #itsaproblem)

QOTD

My LifeLine is what keeps my heart pumping and my mind focused.. My attitude is Contagiouz so move or catch it.

WOW I'm Behind / Let me vent for a moment

Yeah I just realized how I completely stopped posting on here. That's ridiculous. Agh. Oh well. I will catch the world up on what's been going on in my life later, as I need to finish this reading for class. However, before I do I need to vent for a moment.

Disrespect is unacceptable, and in my eyes becoming more unforgivable as the days pass. It is amazing to me how much I can count on my ship for support, friendship, and understanding, and the people who have been my friends for years can be so completely wishy washy. Not that I wouldn't expect my ship to be there for me, but lets be honest, I've really only known most of them for 1 year, a fantastic year that's been the best of my life so far, but its only been 1.

I've always thought it was horrible when people joined sororities and frats and completely ditched their friends. An unpleasant experience I unfortunatly went through with some of my friends. As such, I work really hard to make sure I spend time with all of my friends, greek or not. Sadly, they apparently don't put me up on the same level as I put them, because they find it acceptable to completely leave you hanging...on multiple occasions, ditch you, or completely exclude you.

Ugh.
Ok I'm done.
I feel much better.

It just blows my mind how even my mentees, who are also my friends, but they have known me for less time as well, can even be more supportive.

Like, come on.

Ok. Back to the smiley face. I will be taking some me time though this week. Also, my baby sister is coming so that will make my week.

HAVE A MARVELOUS MONDAY

What Makes a Real Friend?

You know that song... Make new friends, but keep the old, one is silver and the others gold?

When I was little I thought it meant that new friends are better than old friends. Clearly I know now that that is not necessarily true. Later I took it to mean that some friends are better than others, the better ones being the gold. Over the years, I've learned that many of my friends prefer silver over gold (with regards to jewlrey) so I wonder if I was confused about which was best all along.

Recently, I've been struggling a lot with some of my relationships with people who I have considered my friends for the last couple years. In reflecting about it and discussing this issue with the limited people who have been there over the years, I have come to the discovery that I really don't know who is my friend. I've come to the conclusion that I have some very very good people in my life, but I don't know if they all are my friends. This scares and saddens me.

I feel like is a friend is someone who you confide and they confide in you. Most of my relationships are very one sided. I don't know how this happened or how to fix this. In addition, it amazes me how much people who I haven't been close with until fairly recently, will support me, and come to me for support, and of course just to be silly...where those people who I considered myself close with, share information with each other, or people I don't hang out with, but get upset when they don't know what's going on in my life. Or now they act funny because I've ceased being excited when I see them, because...I'm not. Why should I make people feel good, because I'm happy to see them, and they rarely if ever do that for me?

This is not to say, I'm not excited when I see them. But I've decided to work on me, and being happy, and being alert. So why expend energy I could use to better myself on people who don't really value me?

I'm done wasting my time on disrespectful, fairweather, people.

Done.

Forever, forever, you'll stay in my heart

So my friends and I were talking about about boys and relationships with one of their moms. It is February so these types of conversations all though typical of us...have been happening a lot more frequently. We discussed the following questions:

Would we approach a guy if we liked him?
Why wouldn't we...are we afraid of rejection or just shy around guys?

Being that we are all Christian we all believe in the word of the Lord and the bible says in Proverbs 18:22 "Whoso findeth a wife findeth a good thing, and obtaineth favour of the LORD." I want so much to find love and that man who will be my best friend, lover, and companion... but I'm not going to lie, I want him to be the pursuer. Yes, I know that's sexist and old fashioned as well but it's what I want.

However, we realized and discussed: Why should a man/boy/guy work to find a woman when the easiness of a large percentage of girls emanates from their person which the male species picks up on? Guys know their will always be some floozy around the corner so why pursue someone?

I honestly have no idea why a guy would want to go through all that work...but I want him to.
I'm watching My Best Friends Wedding with Chellikins and it's making me really sad.

I await the day when I can sing song about someone I know.

The moment I wake up
Before I put on my makeup
I say a little prayer for you
While combing my hair, now,
And wondering what dress to wear, now,
I say a little prayer for you

Forever, forever, you'll stay in my heart
and I will love you
Forever, forever, we never will part
Oh, how I'll love you
Together, together, that's how it must be
To live without you
Would only be heartbreak for me.

I run for the bus, dear,
While riding I think of us, dear,
I say a little prayer for you.
At work I just take time
And all through my coffee break-time,
I say a little prayer for you.

Forever, forever, you'll stay in my heart
and I will love you
Forever, forever we never will part
Oh, how I'll love you
Together, together, that's how it must be
To live without you
Would only be heartbreak for me.

My darling believe me,
For me there is no one
But you.