Songs I'm Diggin At This Very Moment...Like Right Now

Rude Boy- Rihanna (Why is this so dang catchy?)
There Goes My Baby - Usher...actually everything by Usher old and new
Blaque - everything...yeah it's been a reminiscing week

Current Mood: Amanda Perez - God Send Me an Angel

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BH7PqKbX9Ok

It's been five months since you went away
Left without a word and nothing to say
When I was the one who gave you my heart and soul
But it wasn't good enough for you, no
So I asked God

God send me an angel
From the heavens above
Send me an angel to heal my broken heart
From being in love
'Cause all I do is cry
God send me an angel
To wipe the tears from my eyes

And I know it might sound crazy
But after all that I still love you
You wanna come back in my life
But now there is something I have to do
I have to tell the one that I once adored
That they can't have my love no more
Cause my heart can't take no more lies
And my eyes are all out of cries

God send me an angel
From the heavens above
Send me an angel to heal my broken heart
From being in love
'Cause all I do is cry
God send me an angel
To wipe the tears from my eyes

Now you had me on my knees
Begging God please to send you back to me
I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep
You made me feel like I could not breathe
Now all I wanted to do was to feel your touch
And give you all my love
But you took my love for granted
Want my lovin' now
But you can't have it
God

God send me an angel
From the heavens above
Send me an angel to heal my broken heart
From being in love
'Cause all I do is cry
God send me an angel
To wipe the tears from my eyes

Oh God, send me (God send me an angel)
An angel (wipe the tears from my eyes) Oh baby
Send me an angel from the heavens above
Send me an angel (God send me an angel)
From being in love (send me an angel)
Oh God, send me an angel
Send me an angel (send me an angel)
Ooohhhh..

Strength Courage and Wisdom

Strength Courage & Wisdom. I love this song. Currently, I think it mirrors that thoughts in my head.


Inside my head there lives a dream that I want to see in the sun
Behind my eyes there lives a me that I've been hiding for much too long
'Cause I've been, too afraid to let it show
'Cause I'm scared of the judgment that may follow
Always putting off my living for tomorrow
It's time to step out on faith, I've gotta show my face
It's been elusive for so long, but freedom is mine today
I've gotta step out on faith, It's time to show my face
Procrastination had me down but look what I have found, I found

[Chorus:]
Strength, courage, and wisdom
And it's been inside of me all along,
Strength, courage, and wisdom
Inside of me

Behind my pride there lives a me, that knows humility
Inside my voice there is a soul, and in my soul there is a voice
But I've been, too afraid to make a choice
'Cause I'm scared of the things that I might be missing
Running too fast to stop and listen

It's time to step out on faith, I've gotta show my face
It's been elusive for so long but freedom is mine today
I've gotta step out on faith it's time to show my face
Procrastination had me down but look what I have found, I found

[Chorus]

[Bridge:]
I close my eyes and I think of all the things that I want to see
'Cause I know, now that I've opened up my heart I know that
Anything I want can be, so let it be, so let it be:.

Strength, courage, and wisdom
It's been inside of me all along,
Strength, courage, wisdom
It's been inside of me all along, everyday I'm praying for:

[Chorus]

Vamp
I found it in me, I found it finally
I'm sure to keep it' cause I like it, I say thank you

A Problem and A Solution

Problem:
I am freaking out wondering what I'm going to do after college. Yes, I've applied to programs. Yes, I've completed my teachers certification. Yet, I have no decisions. Thinking about life after May 21, 2010 is consuming my mind. Real talk. I think about it at least once every other minute. I've become an insomniac. I've ceased being productive academically or at my jobs. It's a legit issue.

Solution:
Focus on things that calm me down. Today I went to go see Afriky Lolo and I was reminded of my love for dance and music. It's hilarious that I will dance in class, go out with friends, dance in Black Anthology, and when everything ends...believe that I'll be ok. I need some new music..and I need to take some time out of each day to dance, and play or listen to music. Hopefully that'll keep me a little bit centered.

Sincerely,

Ceily Decietful (yeah I'm still here...it'll be awhile til I'm gone)

Forever, forever, you'll stay in my heart

So my friends and I were talking about about boys and relationships with one of their moms. It is February so these types of conversations all though typical of us...have been happening a lot more frequently. We discussed the following questions:

Would we approach a guy if we liked him?
Why wouldn't we...are we afraid of rejection or just shy around guys?

Being that we are all Christian we all believe in the word of the Lord and the bible says in Proverbs 18:22 "Whoso findeth a wife findeth a good thing, and obtaineth favour of the LORD." I want so much to find love and that man who will be my best friend, lover, and companion... but I'm not going to lie, I want him to be the pursuer. Yes, I know that's sexist and old fashioned as well but it's what I want.

However, we realized and discussed: Why should a man/boy/guy work to find a woman when the easiness of a large percentage of girls emanates from their person which the male species picks up on? Guys know their will always be some floozy around the corner so why pursue someone?

I honestly have no idea why a guy would want to go through all that work...but I want him to.
I'm watching My Best Friends Wedding with Chellikins and it's making me really sad.

I await the day when I can sing song about someone I know.

The moment I wake up
Before I put on my makeup
I say a little prayer for you
While combing my hair, now,
And wondering what dress to wear, now,
I say a little prayer for you

Forever, forever, you'll stay in my heart
and I will love you
Forever, forever, we never will part
Oh, how I'll love you
Together, together, that's how it must be
To live without you
Would only be heartbreak for me.

I run for the bus, dear,
While riding I think of us, dear,
I say a little prayer for you.
At work I just take time
And all through my coffee break-time,
I say a little prayer for you.

Forever, forever, you'll stay in my heart
and I will love you
Forever, forever we never will part
Oh, how I'll love you
Together, together, that's how it must be
To live without you
Would only be heartbreak for me.

My darling believe me,
For me there is no one
But you.

Music Quotes

So random fact about me:

I love a good quote. I have quotes I liked saved all over my computer, written on post it notes in my room, on posters on my walls, saved in my phone, and saved in various email addresses.

I'm about to get a ipod shuffle and you get to engrave it for free. So I need a tiny (short) quote that I like about music. So far I have the following choices:

Music is what feelings look like

Music is love in search of a word

Music is an outburst of the soul

Where words fall music speaks

You are the music while it lasts

Music is life.

Which one? Or any more suggestions? Let me know.

Much Love.