Memorial Day Weekend

Memorial Day Weekend was a win!
-Despite how much time it is/will take up I'm really happy I'm getting to step in Marchdown before I leave and I think all the dovelies on the team are hilarious and I'm sad I'm just getting to know some of them for the first time
-Landing was a #fail but that's ok
-Memorial Day party with the ship was a definite #win. Our headbands were gorgeous, blu and white took over the room with the bar, all people from out of town were there that I love, I was happy...then we went to iHop so of course I was happy.
-Memorial Day...today...long but filled with wonderment
*SoupZ came back today. ::tear:: we had our last ship dinner with the whole ship for awhile because she's leaving us to go live with her husband in Hawaii #dislike
*Had my first bbq for the ressies for the summer and everyone came to help!!! mad love for panics, pm, go, and gina!!
*Everybody who came to help with my bbq for the ressies packed in the car and cheleasa joined us and we headed to the greek picnic which was fun and on my fav sorors nichelle was there so you know i was laughing and having fun
*then ship dinner
*and now procrastinating by writing this

I AM HAPPY

oh and i saw my grandbaby (who's leaving me to go be successful in nyc this summer) and shay too! even though shay and i failed at most of our plans we did make it to kayaks for lunch on sat.

OH!!! and my auntie Sam got married!!!!!!!!!! i'm so happy for her (#lowkey jealous...a hubby and a baby?!...yeah she's amazing)
--> and saw all the aunties and mom as a consequence =)

Yeah. Basically.

It was a great weekend.

Bring it on weekdays!!!!

Current Mood: Amanda Perez - God Send Me an Angel

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BH7PqKbX9Ok

It's been five months since you went away
Left without a word and nothing to say
When I was the one who gave you my heart and soul
But it wasn't good enough for you, no
So I asked God

God send me an angel
From the heavens above
Send me an angel to heal my broken heart
From being in love
'Cause all I do is cry
God send me an angel
To wipe the tears from my eyes

And I know it might sound crazy
But after all that I still love you
You wanna come back in my life
But now there is something I have to do
I have to tell the one that I once adored
That they can't have my love no more
Cause my heart can't take no more lies
And my eyes are all out of cries

God send me an angel
From the heavens above
Send me an angel to heal my broken heart
From being in love
'Cause all I do is cry
God send me an angel
To wipe the tears from my eyes

Now you had me on my knees
Begging God please to send you back to me
I couldn't eat, I couldn't sleep
You made me feel like I could not breathe
Now all I wanted to do was to feel your touch
And give you all my love
But you took my love for granted
Want my lovin' now
But you can't have it
God

God send me an angel
From the heavens above
Send me an angel to heal my broken heart
From being in love
'Cause all I do is cry
God send me an angel
To wipe the tears from my eyes

Oh God, send me (God send me an angel)
An angel (wipe the tears from my eyes) Oh baby
Send me an angel from the heavens above
Send me an angel (God send me an angel)
From being in love (send me an angel)
Oh God, send me an angel
Send me an angel (send me an angel)
Ooohhhh..

Thought's on my mind at 12:37 am on April 7th

My duece put it best:

My Life Line is what keeps my heart pumping and my mind focused.. My attitude is Contagiouz so move or catch it. I love MY Sororz!!

Good morning. & . Good night.

Strength Courage and Wisdom

Strength Courage & Wisdom. I love this song. Currently, I think it mirrors that thoughts in my head.


Inside my head there lives a dream that I want to see in the sun
Behind my eyes there lives a me that I've been hiding for much too long
'Cause I've been, too afraid to let it show
'Cause I'm scared of the judgment that may follow
Always putting off my living for tomorrow
It's time to step out on faith, I've gotta show my face
It's been elusive for so long, but freedom is mine today
I've gotta step out on faith, It's time to show my face
Procrastination had me down but look what I have found, I found

[Chorus:]
Strength, courage, and wisdom
And it's been inside of me all along,
Strength, courage, and wisdom
Inside of me

Behind my pride there lives a me, that knows humility
Inside my voice there is a soul, and in my soul there is a voice
But I've been, too afraid to make a choice
'Cause I'm scared of the things that I might be missing
Running too fast to stop and listen

It's time to step out on faith, I've gotta show my face
It's been elusive for so long but freedom is mine today
I've gotta step out on faith it's time to show my face
Procrastination had me down but look what I have found, I found

[Chorus]

[Bridge:]
I close my eyes and I think of all the things that I want to see
'Cause I know, now that I've opened up my heart I know that
Anything I want can be, so let it be, so let it be:.

Strength, courage, and wisdom
It's been inside of me all along,
Strength, courage, wisdom
It's been inside of me all along, everyday I'm praying for:

[Chorus]

Vamp
I found it in me, I found it finally
I'm sure to keep it' cause I like it, I say thank you

Random thoughts and things I like...

I'm watching Law and Order.
I love Law and Order.

Whoopi Goldberg is a foster mom on this episode.
I love Whoopi Goldberg.

I'm also currently drinking am amazing smoothing I made.
I love delicious smoothies.

The end.

Ode to Sleep Deprivation

I am currently sleep deprived. That is a fact. I know it...and it shows. I have not been on the top of my game, physically, mentally or emotionally. So, being the RA that I am I went to http://shs.wustl.edu/healthPromotion/sleep.htm to brush up on my knowledge of sleep and its importance. I thought I'd share. So here it is:


Sleep
Getting enough sleep not only contributes to how you feel and perform the next day, but also has a huge impact on the overall quality of your life. Sacrificing sleep means you are sacrificing your chance to live up to your fullest academic and creative potential.

What is sleep?
There is a lot going on in your body and your brain when you sleep. A typical night’s sleep occurs in 90 minute cycles of REM (rapid eye movement) sleep and non-REM sleep. Your pulse, breathing, and body temperature rise and fall during these cycles. Brain-waves are active during REM sleep and researchers believe that the brain takes care of important tasks involving learning and memory during this time.

Why is sleep so important?
Sleep is essential for good health, mental and emotional functioning, and safety. Research indicates that sleep loss impairs your ability to perform tasks involving memory, learning, and logical reasoning, which may contribute to unfulfilled potential at school and strained relationships. Insufficient sleep can also be extremely dangerous, leading to serious or even fatal accidents.

It should take you fewer than 30 minutes to fall asleep. Symptoms of insomnia include difficulty falling asleep, frequent awakenings, waking up too early and not being able to fall back asleep, and waking up feeling unrefreshed. Stress is the most common cause of insomnia.

How much sleep do you need?
Getting enough sleep refers to the amount of sleep you need to not feel sleepy the next day. Sleep experts generally recommend an average of 7-9 hours per night. If sleepiness interferes with or makes it difficult to do your daily activities, you probably need more sleep.
Sleep need is biological. Exactly how much sleep any individual needs is genetically determined. How can you determine what you need? Sleep until you wake on your own, without an alarm clock. If you feel rested, that is your sleep need.

If you’ve been having sleep problems for more than one week or if sleepiness interferes with the way you feel or function during the day, a doctor's help may be needed.

What about medications?
Over the counter (OTC) medications: You should discuss ANY sleep aid you are planning to take with your doctor. OTC sleep medicines usually contain antihistamines which may induce drowsiness that lasts into the next day. They can also interact with other medicines you may be taking.
Prescription medications: Your doctor may prescribe sleeping pills or tranquilizers for short term use under certain conditions, such as after the death of a loved one or other serious emotional trauma. However, risk of side effects and addiction are a concern with extended use of these medications. If you need long-term help in sleeping, talk to your doctor about other options.
Stimulants: The use of stimulants to stay awake is risky. Raised blood pressure, anxiety, dizziness, aggressive behavior, and irregular or rapid heart beat can result as a consequence. Using Adderall, Ritalin or other prescription stimulants for any reason other than their intended purpose, by someone other than the intended recipient, or in a dosage other than prescribed is dangerous. The possibility of drug interactions, rapid onset, and increased potency, make the misuse of stimulants highly dangerous.
Alcohol: Alcohol seems to accelerate falling asleep. However, it also disrupts normal sleep patterns and suppresses REM sleep, even when alcohol has been eliminated. Alcohol also makes it difficult to awaken, even if consumed in moderate amounts.
How can you take care of yourself?
Follow these tips for getting a good night’s sleep:

Be bland before bed. To fall asleep quickly, avoid caffeine, nicotine and alcohol in the evening.
Be predictable. Go to bed as close to the same time each night as possible, and build into your schedule enough time for 8 hours of sleep each night.
Establish a routine. Establishing a regular, relaxing bedtime routine will allow you to unwind and send a "signal" to your brain that it's time to sleep.
Notes on naps. If you anticipate a night with little sleep, take a nap beforehand to avoid sleep loss. But if you suffer from imsomnia, consider avoiding naps altogether.
Exercise regularly. And do so at least three hours before bed time.
Reduce stress. If you lie awake worrying about things you need to do, try “putting them away” by writing them down in a journal so you are free to sleep.
Save your bed for sleep. Avoid using your bed for anything other than sleep or sex.
Check your sleep environment. Make it as pleasant, comfortable, and quiet as you can. Most people sleep best in a cool, dark environment.
Keep your alarm clock out of sight. Do not “check the time” if you wake in the middle of the night. This often creates arousal and makes it more difficult to fall back asleep.
Grab a light snack. It can be hard to fall asleep if you’re hungry.
Never drive when you are tired. If you’re feeling tired while driving, pull off the road in a safe rest area and take a nap for 15-45 minutes. The best prevention for drowsy driving is a good night's sleep the night before your trip.
Where can you go for help?
Campus Experts
Student Health Services, 314.935.6666. For chronic sleep problems, you may want to consult with a psychiatrist for a medication evaluation.
On-Line Resources
National Sleep Foundation

Power Sleep

Harvard Division of Sleep Medicine
Where can you learn more?
Professional
Health Promotion Services, provides brochures and other resources. To request a sleep program, email Melissa Ruwitch, or call314.935.7139
Peer
Uncle Joe’s Peer Counseling and Resource Center, 314.935.5141. Call to request a program on sleep.

Is there a fifth element?

So the movie "The 5th Element" has always been entertaining and interesting to me. I'm currently watching it with my best friends from school and I started to wonder...Is there a real 5th element?



The original 4 terrestrial elements are: fire, earth, wind, and water... that is commonly known information. Growing up in the 90s we all learned about the other element of Heart thanks to Captain Planet and Ma-Ti (who consequently I have called Ha-ji my whole life until just now looking up the Planateers names on Wikipedia).





After watching the 5th element I could consider Love the 5th element... as there is no reason for life without love.

When you google the 5th element it also suggests the 5th element on the periodic table, Aether from Greek mythology meaning heavenly light or that which fills up the space of the universe, or according to Aristotle it's quintessence

So what is it?

Forever, forever, you'll stay in my heart

So my friends and I were talking about about boys and relationships with one of their moms. It is February so these types of conversations all though typical of us...have been happening a lot more frequently. We discussed the following questions:

Would we approach a guy if we liked him?
Why wouldn't we...are we afraid of rejection or just shy around guys?

Being that we are all Christian we all believe in the word of the Lord and the bible says in Proverbs 18:22 "Whoso findeth a wife findeth a good thing, and obtaineth favour of the LORD." I want so much to find love and that man who will be my best friend, lover, and companion... but I'm not going to lie, I want him to be the pursuer. Yes, I know that's sexist and old fashioned as well but it's what I want.

However, we realized and discussed: Why should a man/boy/guy work to find a woman when the easiness of a large percentage of girls emanates from their person which the male species picks up on? Guys know their will always be some floozy around the corner so why pursue someone?

I honestly have no idea why a guy would want to go through all that work...but I want him to.
I'm watching My Best Friends Wedding with Chellikins and it's making me really sad.

I await the day when I can sing song about someone I know.

The moment I wake up
Before I put on my makeup
I say a little prayer for you
While combing my hair, now,
And wondering what dress to wear, now,
I say a little prayer for you

Forever, forever, you'll stay in my heart
and I will love you
Forever, forever, we never will part
Oh, how I'll love you
Together, together, that's how it must be
To live without you
Would only be heartbreak for me.

I run for the bus, dear,
While riding I think of us, dear,
I say a little prayer for you.
At work I just take time
And all through my coffee break-time,
I say a little prayer for you.

Forever, forever, you'll stay in my heart
and I will love you
Forever, forever we never will part
Oh, how I'll love you
Together, together, that's how it must be
To live without you
Would only be heartbreak for me.

My darling believe me,
For me there is no one
But you.

Pensamientos del momento

#1 IHOP all you can eat pancakes. Excited about going there with the grandbaby and the rest of 09



#2 I'm still hungry

#3 I really need to be productive while I'm at work. About to get cracking on Autobiografía de un esclavo.

#4 I really wish I knew all the words in this text so I didn't have to look up some of them. Reading my Spanish homework always takes so long.

#5 Pearls are that deal. Real talk.

thoughts on my mind 9:17pm feb. 10 2010

I've decided that until I catch up on blog posts, I will post the first 5 thoughts on my mind every 15 minutes for as many days as possible, for as long as I remember. I will have 365 blog posts at the end of the year. Believe that.

#1 i'm hungry.
#2 "paris we do it proper"
#3 happy thoughts on my mind...must keep calm
#4 i really love the theory of cognitive dissonance...like for real.
#5 always ride or die

Back to School Back to School

It's the first day of class!!!
It's the last first day of class in undergrad!

It's only 8:58 and today has already been a good day. I woke up on time, felt great. Put on some cute clothes made a mug of tea and headed off to hear about my independent fitness class. I love getting credit for something I already wanted to do anyways. It's fantastic. And my friend is in my class...plus she happened to be enrolled in Argentine tango and needed a new partner since her partner dropped the class...so I might be in that.

Currently...I'm cooking some breakfast, then I'll head off to work with my babies.

I'm just all smiles today. Probably a mixture of the goodness so far today, the high from performing for the MLK commemoration yesterday, and excitement for the rest of the day (TFA phone interview, hopefully booking spring break plans, hopefully some shopping, with luck a little Argentine tango, and of course a good time dancing it up with the Black Anthology dancers).

Catch ya later... PURRciZion