Middle School Mania

Middle schoolers are so hilarious.
They want to be grown, act grown, talk grown (whatever that sounds like), and dress grown (i'm still not sure what this means).
But...
THEY CAN'T.

Deep down inside they're still basically those little kids I love so much.
So even though it frustrates me when they don't want to participate,
and then get mad that I called them out.

I really can't stay mad. I just dislike confrontation in general.

So. Middle school kids.

They're just.

Funny.

In case you're wondering, today we took the kids to FPCC, and it can only be described as Middle School Mania.
The day started off with them trying to hide. DIDN'T WORK. Then I had to enter stl mean girls territory and retrieve the "glamour girls" from the bathroom. THEY WERE SHOCKED. That's just a glimpse of how the day started...so imagine the rest!

Memorial Day Weekend

Memorial Day Weekend was a win!
-Despite how much time it is/will take up I'm really happy I'm getting to step in Marchdown before I leave and I think all the dovelies on the team are hilarious and I'm sad I'm just getting to know some of them for the first time
-Landing was a #fail but that's ok
-Memorial Day party with the ship was a definite #win. Our headbands were gorgeous, blu and white took over the room with the bar, all people from out of town were there that I love, I was happy...then we went to iHop so of course I was happy.
-Memorial Day...today...long but filled with wonderment
*SoupZ came back today. ::tear:: we had our last ship dinner with the whole ship for awhile because she's leaving us to go live with her husband in Hawaii #dislike
*Had my first bbq for the ressies for the summer and everyone came to help!!! mad love for panics, pm, go, and gina!!
*Everybody who came to help with my bbq for the ressies packed in the car and cheleasa joined us and we headed to the greek picnic which was fun and on my fav sorors nichelle was there so you know i was laughing and having fun
*then ship dinner
*and now procrastinating by writing this

I AM HAPPY

oh and i saw my grandbaby (who's leaving me to go be successful in nyc this summer) and shay too! even though shay and i failed at most of our plans we did make it to kayaks for lunch on sat.

OH!!! and my auntie Sam got married!!!!!!!!!! i'm so happy for her (#lowkey jealous...a hubby and a baby?!...yeah she's amazing)
--> and saw all the aunties and mom as a consequence =)

Yeah. Basically.

It was a great weekend.

Bring it on weekdays!!!!

Friendships

It's funny how things work out. I cannot explain the dynamics of my relationships with my friends. I've been trying hard to focus on developing them this semester so that when I leave college I won't be left virtually alone besides 1 or 2 friends like in high school...but we'll see.

One-sided relationships, relationships where people can't be open all the time, relationships where people are excluded from plans,..don't work well with me. I strongly dislike them.

I've always been the type of person who hangs with different groups of people. Oftentimes my friends from different circles don't get along...but I don't care. I feel like if you love and respect me enough you can handle being around each other and doing things together. However, I can understand the idea that people shouldn't have to put up with people they don't like. But how do you balance that?

I tried this semester and I think it may have damaged some friendships, but it is what it is. I can't change the past. But I'm really going to miss all my friends after graduation. I wish we had a whole year without classes just to hang out. I'm not ready to go out and make new friends all over again. I like the ones I have.

WOW I'm Behind / Let me vent for a moment

Yeah I just realized how I completely stopped posting on here. That's ridiculous. Agh. Oh well. I will catch the world up on what's been going on in my life later, as I need to finish this reading for class. However, before I do I need to vent for a moment.

Disrespect is unacceptable, and in my eyes becoming more unforgivable as the days pass. It is amazing to me how much I can count on my ship for support, friendship, and understanding, and the people who have been my friends for years can be so completely wishy washy. Not that I wouldn't expect my ship to be there for me, but lets be honest, I've really only known most of them for 1 year, a fantastic year that's been the best of my life so far, but its only been 1.

I've always thought it was horrible when people joined sororities and frats and completely ditched their friends. An unpleasant experience I unfortunatly went through with some of my friends. As such, I work really hard to make sure I spend time with all of my friends, greek or not. Sadly, they apparently don't put me up on the same level as I put them, because they find it acceptable to completely leave you hanging...on multiple occasions, ditch you, or completely exclude you.

Ugh.
Ok I'm done.
I feel much better.

It just blows my mind how even my mentees, who are also my friends, but they have known me for less time as well, can even be more supportive.

Like, come on.

Ok. Back to the smiley face. I will be taking some me time though this week. Also, my baby sister is coming so that will make my week.

HAVE A MARVELOUS MONDAY

i do not like rips bits liars or disrespectful individuals

Let me preface this post with the fact that Sister Act 2 is on so I'm very happy.

However, I need to get something off my chest. People let you down. With all of my education classes, mentoring training, psychology classes, and RA training I know that people generally expect the worst of people and focus on the negative. As such, I try earnestly to focus on the positive things people do. Even, and especially people I dislike personally because I don't like personal biases to get in the way of work.

HOWEVER.

I have legit encountered a grimy individual. I didn't know these people actually existed. I thought everyone had some good in them. Apparently I was wrong. I haven't liked this rip ever since I became acquainted with her. But, I've constantly pointed out the few good things she's done and tried to focus on them, only to find out she's being lying this whole time with some underhanded sneaky mess. I DON'T LIKE RIPS, BITS, LIARS, AND/OR DISRESPECTFUL INDIVIDUALS.

I'm very upset. But I refuse to waste my life on unimportant individuals. So my unhappy emotions end now.

Got my happy thoughts on the post-its in Baby J and in my wallet.

Happy Thoughts For The Day:
Sam Sam
Strawberry Ice Cream
My mom
Ecuador
Fresh Empanadas
Strawberries and cream