A Different World

I love this show.

A great quote from the episode I saw the other day...

"Don't try and fix a problem with a catastrophe."

Great advice right?

I wish people would follow it.

Memorial Day Weekend

Memorial Day Weekend was a win!
-Despite how much time it is/will take up I'm really happy I'm getting to step in Marchdown before I leave and I think all the dovelies on the team are hilarious and I'm sad I'm just getting to know some of them for the first time
-Landing was a #fail but that's ok
-Memorial Day party with the ship was a definite #win. Our headbands were gorgeous, blu and white took over the room with the bar, all people from out of town were there that I love, I was happy...then we went to iHop so of course I was happy.
-Memorial Day...today...long but filled with wonderment
*SoupZ came back today. ::tear:: we had our last ship dinner with the whole ship for awhile because she's leaving us to go live with her husband in Hawaii #dislike
*Had my first bbq for the ressies for the summer and everyone came to help!!! mad love for panics, pm, go, and gina!!
*Everybody who came to help with my bbq for the ressies packed in the car and cheleasa joined us and we headed to the greek picnic which was fun and on my fav sorors nichelle was there so you know i was laughing and having fun
*then ship dinner
*and now procrastinating by writing this

I AM HAPPY

oh and i saw my grandbaby (who's leaving me to go be successful in nyc this summer) and shay too! even though shay and i failed at most of our plans we did make it to kayaks for lunch on sat.

OH!!! and my auntie Sam got married!!!!!!!!!! i'm so happy for her (#lowkey jealous...a hubby and a baby?!...yeah she's amazing)
--> and saw all the aunties and mom as a consequence =)

Yeah. Basically.

It was a great weekend.

Bring it on weekdays!!!!

The World is Treating My Life

Like real talk. The world really is treating my life. The good news is my eyeZ and mind are wide open and I'm paying attention so I'm catching the hints. Thanks to Love for the advice. Every time I've opened fb today or searched for something on google I've gotten exactly the message I needed to see.


"Take away my foolish desires, and let me find life by
walking with you.-Psalm 119:37


BE JOYFUL!

Home is where your heart is.

It's cliche.
But it's true.
Thank Katie Jackson's mom on the Jackson 5 movie for that reminder.

So keeping with the be joyful kick...
I'm extra thankful for the people that come in and out of my life for seasons to make my homes happy. Even if it's only for a little while...you have my heart.

Advice from Stickies

If you're ever around me you know about Baby J
If you're around me a lot you know about my post-it note problem
I was reading the quotes on my stickies today and found an old one...
I don't know who wrote it...but I like it and I'm gonna work on it.

Less things. More space. More Life.


Makes sense.

Messages You Need Pop Up Everywhere

Messages You Need Pop Up Everywhere


Sitting in my room. Wondering about this boy. Crushing on another. Worried about Quita. Complaining about work..and many other things. But I'll stop now.

I went on Facebook and my uncle Rockey's status treated my life:


"Always be joyful. Never stop praying. Be thankful in all circumstances, for this is God's will for you who belong to Christ Jesus."1 Thessalonians 5:16-18

Why do we rub our eyez?

I'm about to crash...I realized I was sleepy when I couldn't stop rubbing my eyeZ. Then I wondered why we rub our eyeZ when were tired in the first place. So thanks to http://www.strangequestions.com/question/784/Why-do-people-rub-their-eyes-when-theyre-tired.html and Google...here's the answer.

There are two reasons we do this: dry eyes and relaxation.

Your tear ducts get tired just like the rest of your body. When this happens, they produce less fluid, which dries out your eyes. If you are really tired, you may drift off mentally, causing you to stare. Having your eyes open for prolonged periods of time increases dryness.

When you rub your eyes you are stimulating the tear ducts, while also spreading moisture over your eye. This pressure has another effect: By pressing against your ocular muscles, you are also putting pressure on your Vagus nerve. This triggers a reduction in blood pressure, which helps you relax and get ready for sleep. This is the same reason we rub our eyes when we're under a lot of stress.

Changing... should you? Do you?

So I'm watching Grease right now, and I'm wondering how do people feel about changing for the people who they are attracted to or are in relationships with. I feel like Danny may have been pretending to be someone he wasn't on the beach, or maybe he really was a nice guy who just put on an act at school...but Sandy definitely changed to be acceptable to Danny at the end.






We all know change is constant and therefore inevitable, but is it good or bad to actively try to change for another? There's a difference between trying to better yourself and trying to be someone you're not.


I think I sometimes try to change for others, but I end up judging myself and stopping most of the time. I don't know if this is a good thing or a bad thing. Hmm. Oh well. Just wondering.

POSITIVITY IS KEY

apparently i have some horrible disease that's making me emotional... as usual i have decided to self medicate myself...todays cure will be happy thoughts:

strawaberry ice cream
real hugs
good laughs
being tickled until you cry even though you hate the person at the time
my dad
my grandma
bowling
sunglasses
ice skating
ecuador
spain
the beach
the besties, from everywhere
my favorite sandz
Lifeline
Contagiouz
success
my students
my future family
purple
lava lamps
skype calls from my loves across the world
my trio fam
baby DJ
driving down 95...at the appropriate speed lol
my future puppy - Kitt-Tea Strong
the master mashup mixes that play in my head
my birthday
well executed, wonderfully choreographed dance routines
taking pictures
great photographs
cruises
shopping
real love
mcdonalds
my parents

Here's a good message:

"Life can change ya directions
Even when you ain't planned it
All you can do is handle it
The worst thing you could do is panic
Use it to your advantage
Avoid insanity manage to conquer every obstacle
Make impossible possible
Even when winnings illogical
Losing's still far from optional"
-T.I.

Emotional rollercoaster

That adequately describes this past week, and my current mindset. Generally I'm the one who's happy and can remain positive and laugh everything off. This week things are different...and everything's about to change...and I strongly dislike big changes.

Recap of the week: my tre left after getting married, financial disfunction in the family, mom and sam came to visit and although I didn't tell them I think at least mom knew this might be the only time I see them this year, boy issues, friend issues, I GRADUATED, my friends left.

I miss my best friends from home, I miss my best friends from school, I'm broke, I'm watching To Kill A Mockingbird and Tom Robinson just died...

But I have a job for the summer and next year, my family came to my graduation, Paris and I are planning a trip to Vegas next summer, and summertime in St. Louis always is fun

I don't know how I feel right now
=/

GRADUATION IS HERE

BSA Graduation was this evening... It started off with a few hitches but turned out wonderfully. I think I'm legit freaking out now about everyone leaving. =( I LOVE CLASS X!!! I can't imagine attending a different college with a different bunch of crazies ::tear::

Songs I'm Diggin At This Very Moment...Like Right Now

Rude Boy- Rihanna (Why is this so dang catchy?)
There Goes My Baby - Usher...actually everything by Usher old and new
Blaque - everything...yeah it's been a reminiscing week

Am I Clingy?

I don't think I'm clingy. I just think I should see/talk to/or communicate in some way with the people that are important in my life on a regular basis and...YES...I do get upset when we don't. But I don't think thats clingy...or at least I hope it's not. Oh well. Such is life. #keepitmoving (yes, i also talk in tweets/hashtags/trending topics.... now #itsaproblem)

Waking up late. Feeling great.

I just thought the world should know I feel quite wonderful. It's great to have mentees that become your real friends (cough Shay cough), and who are talented and help you with your hair. It's wonderful to meet knew people and just talk. I honestly had one of the best conversations I've had with a guy ever last night and we talked about the most random things in the world. It was wonderful. I also am COMPLETELY DONE with my undergraduate career so I got to sleep until I woke up which would have been about 10 minutes ago. Yup. Life is good.

Things I Love

- the color purple (actual color, book, and movie)
- great late night conversations about anything and everything
- wonderful music
- food
- friends
- attention and compliments
- babies
- success
- helping others succeed
- feeling wonderful
- help
- hair advice

I'm happy to say I've had the pleasure of experiencing all these things in the past 48 hours. Pretty wonderful right?

Friendships

It's funny how things work out. I cannot explain the dynamics of my relationships with my friends. I've been trying hard to focus on developing them this semester so that when I leave college I won't be left virtually alone besides 1 or 2 friends like in high school...but we'll see.

One-sided relationships, relationships where people can't be open all the time, relationships where people are excluded from plans,..don't work well with me. I strongly dislike them.

I've always been the type of person who hangs with different groups of people. Oftentimes my friends from different circles don't get along...but I don't care. I feel like if you love and respect me enough you can handle being around each other and doing things together. However, I can understand the idea that people shouldn't have to put up with people they don't like. But how do you balance that?

I tried this semester and I think it may have damaged some friendships, but it is what it is. I can't change the past. But I'm really going to miss all my friends after graduation. I wish we had a whole year without classes just to hang out. I'm not ready to go out and make new friends all over again. I like the ones I have.

Summer 2010

First update. Summer Plans.
I will be an RA on campus, taking a GRE class, hanging with friends, getting in shape and hopefully working with the Campus Y.

I am very excited for this summer. It's kind of the culmination of my college life here in St. Louis. It'll be a nice break and a wonderful time to spend with my friends who will still be in town. I'm expecting an EPIC SUMMER and I refuse to disappoint myself with this expectation.

I ready for new experiences and friends, preparing myself mentally and financially for City Year Chicago next year, spending time with my new baby nephew DJ and of course kickin it HARD with the ship, frat, babycakes Shay, Ray Ray, and everyone else in the Lou.

So for those of you who will be in the 314 this summer... GET HYPE GET HYPE.

What's going on? - Updates will begin now

So it has been forever since I've blogged. I shall try and separate my posts/updates so that all of my resent thoughts and reflections don't get confused.

Junior is Here

Oh. I have so much to write on this blog. So much has happened. I will update the world later. But to spread some joy... my new nephew Junior was born this morning!!!!!! He's beautiful. I just had to share.