5 Star Whaaaat?!

This is HIGHlarious. I must share.


*DISCLAIMER* This does not represent language I use or opinions I have.


"I.am.so. I. am. so. good. I am the baddest chick in tha hood."

"My money name is money. My money name is money."

LOL

*DEAD*

In appreciation of a true friend...

I am so very appreciative of the true friends I have in my life.

It really makes my day, week, life, to know that I have people that legit care about my life, want and actively seek to find out more about me. I am also happy to have a fervent belief that our friendship will continue to grow and remain strong over the years...because what's life without friends?

I just had a little chat with one of my best friends about a very traumatic and stressful time in my life. I have shared the whole story with very few people, and only two people have every taken the initiative to ask me about it themselves. Thanks. Like real talk.

I only hope I am as good a friend to you as you are to me. Because slacking friendships are yet another epidemic on the rise.

Tonight's noted epidemics:
Snitching
Annoying little sisters
Slacking friendships


Dear World,
I know it's a recession and times are hard, but get it together. These trends/epidemics are not cool.
Heart,
PJ

To much to say. And i'm sleepy.

It's been a LONG while since I've posted. Well, not that long, but very long considering it's my goal to have 365 posts by the end of the year. Anyhoo...many things have occurred. I had an AMAZING spring break...blog post describing to come. I have secured a job service project for next year which was my first choice for 2/3 of this year so YAY...blog post describing also to come.

I can't believe it's really the end of senior year. So much to do. Lots of freaking out. Not enough time. That's everything in a nutshell. I'll elaborate later.

But today was cool. I started my new research assistant gig which I already can tell I'm going to love. I now kind of regret not working on my own research before, but not to worry, I'll just do it now. =)

I had a lovely sushi dinner with part of the ship and an auntie and for the rest of the night I went out with some of the roomies and I was the dd for the night so it was interesting to see EXACTLY how people are when they go out.

I also think I have a new crush. which is wierd. I can't remember the last time I had a crush on someone.

Alas, it is time to catch some zzzzz's.

-Joy & Happiness-

I've level my friends in my brain. Although it sounds bad. It's actually a good thing.

I've been doing a lot of reflecting lately. Partly because I'm dealing with a lot of issues within my circle of friends and partly because I'm freaking out worrying about life after May 21. Either way, I'm very happy for the very few friends I have. Recent events have really helped me see. It's so interesting how many different levels the people you call your friends can fall in. Not that you want to classify your friends, but I think its smart to know who 's who.

At the top, I have my friends I can trust with everything. Everything. These are rare. I know I'm a pretty reserved person with regard to my own issues and problems but I know that L, W, and K are there. We have disagreements, but we get over them. And it's a give and take relationship where I listen to them just like they listen to me. I'm SO appreciative of the fact these people are in my life and I think I might not show it enough so I'm going to work on that.

The next level of friends are really really good friends as well. I think that's where the majority of people everyone thinks are my best friends or in my clique fall. This is not to say I don't trust these people. However, they aren't as open as my friends at the top with sharing, or I need to censor or not discuss certain topics around them because of their reactions and actions after hearing it. OR these people get along with me really well and we kick it on the regular, but we don't really talk.

It's just interesting to think about.

Anyhoo enough babbling

You can be a couch potato and work out! Score!

Couch Potato Exercises!
Do these in between commercials.
Found on: http://www.webmd.com/fitness-exercise/features/fitness-for-couch-potatoes

~ Pushups. If floor pushups are too difficult for you, start off by standing up with your hands on the wall, then pushing back. Do this 10 times; increase the reps as the exercise gets easier.

~ Chair squats. Stand up, sit down, then stand right back up (for even more of a workout, don't sit down all the way). Do this for the length of one commercial. As it gets easier, do it again for the next commercial.

~ Marching in place. Move both your arms and legs; add jumping jacks to increase the intensity.

Strength Courage and Wisdom

Strength Courage & Wisdom. I love this song. Currently, I think it mirrors that thoughts in my head.


Inside my head there lives a dream that I want to see in the sun
Behind my eyes there lives a me that I've been hiding for much too long
'Cause I've been, too afraid to let it show
'Cause I'm scared of the judgment that may follow
Always putting off my living for tomorrow
It's time to step out on faith, I've gotta show my face
It's been elusive for so long, but freedom is mine today
I've gotta step out on faith, It's time to show my face
Procrastination had me down but look what I have found, I found

[Chorus:]
Strength, courage, and wisdom
And it's been inside of me all along,
Strength, courage, and wisdom
Inside of me

Behind my pride there lives a me, that knows humility
Inside my voice there is a soul, and in my soul there is a voice
But I've been, too afraid to make a choice
'Cause I'm scared of the things that I might be missing
Running too fast to stop and listen

It's time to step out on faith, I've gotta show my face
It's been elusive for so long but freedom is mine today
I've gotta step out on faith it's time to show my face
Procrastination had me down but look what I have found, I found

[Chorus]

[Bridge:]
I close my eyes and I think of all the things that I want to see
'Cause I know, now that I've opened up my heart I know that
Anything I want can be, so let it be, so let it be:.

Strength, courage, and wisdom
It's been inside of me all along,
Strength, courage, wisdom
It's been inside of me all along, everyday I'm praying for:

[Chorus]

Vamp
I found it in me, I found it finally
I'm sure to keep it' cause I like it, I say thank you

it's our anniverZary...

Smile on my face.
Joy in my heart.
That's how every day should start.

Today's like that.
Blue skies white stars.
I don't need money.
Or fancy cars.

Cuz we've got us.
I don't care about me.
Cuz WE are all that matters.
Don't you see?

So we celebrate today!
"Why?" You ask we.
Because...

It's our anniverZary!!!!

I love Z.S. Lifeline!

I call her babycakes. Her real name is Shay.

So I told my kid, mentee, friend, that girl named babycakes, Shay that I would dedicate a post to her. So.... here it is. =)

She also requested free advertising for her blog. So check it out. http://purplechocolatehearts.blogspot.com

What makes a good daughter?

So, like a true WashU student let me share with you some random thoughts that popped into my head while trying to cram to finish a homework assignment.

I was researching the familial roles and relations of families in siglo 17 (the 17the century) in Spain...focusing on the roles of unwed daughters. During that time women were subjected to the hidden lines separating their private home lives from their public lives outside the safety and security of their homes. It was dangerous for unwed women to leave the house without a family member because outside the safety of ones house young unwed daughters are subject to the perils of having their virtues lost or rumors that they've done something uncouth which still loses them their public appearance of being virtuous.

Of course it is now 2010 and I do not live in Spain but what are the dangers of me venturing out into the world alone? I feel like that's about to occur. Yes, I've pretty much been on my own since graduating high school but not really? I don't think I'm nervous about what lies ahead, I do however have a strong and fervent fear of loneliness.

Had this been 17th century Spain, and if my parents had money I would already have been married off (hopefully) to a nice husband who provides a house and economic stability to maintain my security and social status. Nowadays marriage cannot guarantee that, however it can guarantee companionship, assuming you really know and love the person you choose to marry. The one thing that still remains the same is that the marriage of the originally unwed daughter makes the parents happy.

Sadly, I can't think of anything that would make my mother, or myself for that matter happier than if I were to get married sometime soon and have children. Is that weird? I obviously know that I'm not a bad daughter for not achieving these goals at this time in my life, however, what makes me a good daughter? I honestly don't know. But it's something to ponder and work on.

SURPRISE

Little Known Fact About Me:

I'm catholic. Yes, african-american catholics exist.
It's so interesting to me how surprised people are to find this out. Apparently I don't state this enough because all my friends always act like it is brand new news to them.

For Lent I've given up swearing and potatoes. These sacrifices may seem small but they are actually kind of big for me. I have been struggling to not curse as much, and today I had a french fry in my mouth and it wasn't until I was chewing that I realized what I was eating and handed the other half. I said a hail mary and kept it moving. But PHEW! That was close.

If you pray, please pray that I am able to continue my sacrifices, especially during spring break. In addition, that I am able to sacrifice other unimportant things in my life to focus more on what IS important. I really need help stopping myself from swearing. I do not want to restart once easter hits. Potatoes on the other head...yeah...I want those back.

I love my frat!

I would just like to take this time to tell the world how much I love my frat. I have ALWAYS wanted a brother. Ask my mom. ALWAYS. And now I do.

It's not on some "oh those are our frat brothers lets make sure we show up at their party" type deal. They are my real brothers. They talk to me about their girl issues, tell me to much information about the ratchetness they get into, and kick it on a regular basis. The best part is I know they always got my back, and they know I always got theirs.

Special shoutouts to my Bff that wanna be 5. I love you! He's always their to make me laugh, and although he's a bit OVER protective, he surely makes sure no one messes with me.

ZETA PHI BETA SIGMA. A bond often imitated. But NEVER duplicated.

Time Flies

It's almost been a year. I can't believe it.

I'm about to graduate...college. Who would have thought?

I'm supposed to be a grownup soon?

SHUT UP.

I'm going to sleep.

I can't think about such things.